c.o.L.D.F.i.s.H : July 2004

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Carrie: Let's be honest. Sometimes there is nothing harder in life than being happy for somebody else. Like lottery winners. Or extremely successful people who are 27. And then there's that hell on earth that only your closest friends can inflict on you.
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Samantha: There's two kinds of guys. The ones who hold your hand and the ones that f**k you.
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Carrie: Maybe the past is like an anchor holding us back. Maybe, you have to let go of who you were to become who you will be.
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Samantha: Who knows, he's a man. You could lay your p***y on a table right in front of one and still not know what he's thinking.
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Carrie: Later that day I got to thinking about relationships. There are those that open you up to something new and exotic, those that are old and familiar, those that bring up lots of questions, those that bring you somewhere unexpected, those that bring you far from where you started, and those that bring you back. But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you can find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous.
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Carrie: I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, can't-live-without-each-other love. And I don't think that love is here in this expensive suite in this lovely hotel in Paris.
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Carrie: When you're young, your whole life is about the pursuit of fun. Then, you grow up and learn to be cautious. You could break a bone or a heart. You look before you leap and sometimes you don't leap at all because there's not always someone there to catch you. And in life, there's no safety net. When did it stop being fun and start being scary?
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Carrie: Maybe mistakes are what make our fate... without them what would shape our lives? Maybe if we had never veered off course we wouldn't fall in love, have babies, or be who we are. After all, things change, so do cities, people come into your life and they go. But it's comforting to know that the ones you love are always in your heart... and if you're very lucky, a plane ride away.

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Thursday, July 29, 2004

WHY... WHY... W H Y ??!!

OK !!! This is unbelievable...

My ex-platonic-friend will be my cousin best-man in the next 2 weeks.... and this aint about anything but WHY HIM ????

I do understand when my cousin said he was desperate looking for a single & available man who can be his best-man since all my cousin's friends married and there's totally no single & available men (cousins) in our relatives ... but again... WHY HIM ????

I know there's no more itchy-bitchy-hearty-lovey thingy between me & my ex-platonic-friend... and I know he knows well most of my big family member.. and I know he's an outgoing person & he's totally fine with this situation and won't take it personally... but again.... WHY HIM ????

Maybe because I'm kindda upset that I can't come to my very dearly cousin wedding party ??? Maybe because I'm kindda jealous that my-ex-platonic-friend will be join with my family gathering (which is the most fun-incredible-unforgettable times in my life that I really really missed now) ??? Maybe I'm just bored with my life here ??? Maybe I need sumthin' new experience ??? Maybe because I don't have more money to spend around ???? hahahhaha there's so many possibility....

but again.... WHY HIM ????

posted by Cha-- @ 11:07 PM

Monday, July 26, 2004

SUMMARY OF LAST WEEKEND

It's been such a busy weekend I've ever had for the last a couple months... You know why??? Ok, here we start....

Friday---
Spending the whole afternoon at school's library, doing research for my all assignments due for next-Monday & finishing my case-study paper due for Saturday...
Done by 7PM, and felt so damned.... Spend the next a couple hours having dinner with Tuti & Erick in Buca Di Bepo (an immigrant Italian Restaurant) which costs us a lot but really amusing with handsome guys .... :=) *sluuuuurp* and finally went back home at 1AM...

Saturday---
Woke up at 7.10AM, started class at 9AM, finished at 12PM, group-study meeting 'til 1.30PM, lunch time in Tabaluyan's at 2PM, hang-out with IFGF folks, went to downtown with Julie & got my very 1st time ticket from City of Chicago (alias kena tilang !!! *grrrrrrrrrrr*) and gotta pay it for $50 *sigh* just because I forgot to put coins in my meter...

Went to a movie at 8.15PM with Tuti, Rita, Dimaz & Bambang and watched CatWoman which is just an OK movie for me... The story just plain, but seeing Halle Berry with that kindda body... really make me wishing to have the same one ... *youuuuu wishh!!!* hehehehehe
After watched movie, went to a Japanese Restaurant calls "Tombo", left early 'coz I've another invitation to join a surprise party for my friend, Danny Canon...

The place calls "White Star", went there with Tasya, Andre, Herry, Andreas & of course the birthday boy hiself, Danny ... and since I've never been come to this kindda place for the last 4 months (plus I've been so fucked up with summer school) I was kindda enjoy it... got a little tipsy ... but can handle it so far ... :=)

Sunday---

Continue having a very early breakfast (at 5AM) 'coz all the boys so hungry !!! and finally can barely back home so I stayed at Tasya's and rushed back home at 9AM, took a-quick-shower and went to church 20mins late... hehehehehe

Have a BBQ-Birthday-Party for Ditto after church.... back home at 6PM ... took another shower (a clean one) and fell sleep at 7.30PM

Monday---

15 hours non-stop sleeping since yesterday nite....

posted by Cha-- @ 10:23 PM

Friday, July 23, 2004

Sering kita bertanya pada diri kita sendiri:

kenapa kita harus mengalami kesulitan, sementara orang lain bisa senang

kenapa kita harus bekerja keras sampai harus lembur, sementara orang lain sudah pulang ke rumah

kenapa kita selalu menjadi karyawan, sementara orang lain bisa jadi usahawan sukses

kenapa kita harus berhujan-hujan naik angkutan umum, sementara orang lain merasa nyaman di

kendaraan pribadinya

tapi pernahkah kita bertanya:

adakah orang lain yang lebih susah daripada kita, malah tidak pernah tahu apa yg namanya senang

adakah orang lain yang tidak punya pekerjaan sampai sekali, sampai rela bekerja apapun

adakah orang yang bahkan untuk naik angkutan umum saja, tidak mampu bayar kenapa kita selalu melihat ke atas, dan tidak pernah melihat ke bawah?

kenapa saat kita susah kita menyalahkan Tuhan, tetapi pada saat senang kita lupa pada Tuhan?

kenapa kita selalu komplain, tapi tidak pernah bersyukur?

jawabannya tidak ada di buku mana pun, tidak ada di siapa pun, tapi dihati kita sendiri... bersyukurlah selagi kau mampu untuk bersyukur.... sebelum segalanya terlambat dan diambil darimu.

here below a story that really touched me (and hopefully you too... )

A man went to a barbershop to have his hair cut and his beard trimmed. As the barber began to work, they began to have a good conversation. They talked about so many things and various subjects. When they eventually touched on the subject of God, the barber said:

"I don't believe thatGod exists."

"Why do you say that?" asked the customer.

"Well, you just have to go out in the street to realize that God doesn't exist. Tell me, if God exists, would there be so many sick people? Would there be abandoned children? If God existed, there would be neither suffering nor pain. I can't imagine a loving a God who would allow all of these things."

The customer thought for a moment, but didn't respond because he didn't want to start an argument. The barber finished his job and the customer left the shop. Just after he left the barbershop, he saw a man in the street with long, stringy, dirty hair and an untrimmed beard. He looked dirty and unkempt. The customer turned back and entered the barber shop again and hesaidto the barber:

"You know what? Barbers do not exist."

"How can you say that?" asked the surprised barber.

"I am here, and I am a barber. And I just worked on you!"

"No!" the customer exclaimed. "Barbers don't exist because if they did, there would be no people with dirty long hair and untrimmed beards, like that man outside."

"Ah, but barbers DO exist! " answered the barber. " What happens, is people do not come to me."

"Exactly!"- affirmed the customer. "That's the point! God, too, DOES exist! What happens, is, people don't go to Him and do not look for Him. That's why there's so much pain and suffering in the world."

posted by Cha-- @ 1:33 PM

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

"Sebelas Sikap yang Menjadi Penyumbang Kegagalan Terbesar dalam Pekerjaan"

1. Arogansi: merasa diri paling benar dan yang lain salah

2. Melograma: selalu ingin menjadi pusat perhatian

3. Volatility: sulit ditebak, bersikap sesuai mood-nya

4. Excessive Caution: takut mengambil keputusan

5. Habitual Distrust: sikap yang selalu curiga kepada orang lain

6. Aloofness: sulit dihubungi dan berkomunikasi dengan orang lain

7. Mischievousness: peraturan dibuat untuk dilanggar

8. Eccentricity: selalu ingin berbeda, sehingga terkadang dianggap aneh oleh orang lain

9. Passive Resistance: tidak yakin dengan apa yang dia katakan

10. Perfectionism: kebanyakan dianggap salah, hanya sedikit yang benar

11. Eagerness to please: mengejar popularitas dalam setiap situasi

posted by Cha-- @ 4:20 PM

Monday, July 19, 2004

CHICAGO'S PAINTBALL TEAM

It was on Sunday, July 18, 2004 me & bunch of folks from Chi'Town went to play PaintBall ...

The location was farrrrrr farr away from downtown... it's even near Wisconsin's state border... We started at 2.30 PM and we finished it at 5.30 PM. We devided into 2 groups, each of them consists 8 people.

I'm in the same group with Julie, Steve, Tuti, Miko, Jenny, Welly and Lukas... and our enemy are Andre, Fantan, Sandra, Jimmy, Kika, Josephine, Sugi and Dimaz.

The game was so fun !! I got shot in my upper right arm, and in my upper right leg.... and when I'm the only one person who alive (while my other gangs were dead) I was outta amunition in one of the games .... and I've no choice... I've to surrender *sigh*

So many funny things happened, I shoot one of my enemy's butt (hahahahah I was laughed out loud if I remembered that) ... in my enemy gangs, Sandra shot her own friend (Andre) hahahahahaha ... me & Lukas hide behind the same wall (and I got shot 'coz we both too big to hide behind the same wall... 'doooh) hahahahahah

It was fun... so fun !!!

posted by Cha-- @ 9:09 PM

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

SCHEDULE FOR JULY - AUGUST

This below will be my fixed schedule for July - August ... no more "Summer-Fun-Times" for me huh???

Mon & Wed [6.30pm - 9.30pm] ---> GSB 761 class

Tue & Thurs [11am - 9pm] ---> Make a Living

Fri ---> Study & Finish all assignments

Sat [9am - 12am] ---> GSB 622 class, continue with Group Project Meeting

Sun [10am - 12.30pm] ---> Church & Finish the Unfinished assignments

posted by Cha-- @ 11:49 PM

Monday, July 12, 2004

MADONNA: Re-INVENTION TOUR

I've this wonderful opportunity, a 'worth-it' one... to watch this material girl in concert in United Center - Chicago by July 11 (yesterday)... since I really really want to see her concert... (and I missed the previous concert) ... I was so excited when my friend Rita asked me to go with her to see this concert... "hell yeaaa I wanna go with you to the concert!!" ... the ticket costs $45... I know... the seat is in the upper level... but I don't mind with that since I don't wanna missed the concert anymore... hehehehe

The schedule supposed to be 8PM, but yeah... Madonna started 30 mins late... but it's fine... everybody was excited... eventhough Madonna's concert is 4 days in a row here... still the ticket is 90% sold out... I can see from the seats almost full...

The concert took 2 hours for Madonna to sing almost 18 songs... she mixed it from her previous albums and some from her new album... She even played guitar... well... that's impressive... :=)

And her body ... omygosssh!!! she's old... you know what I mean!!! 40 years old woman, with that kindda body... she's hot!! hehehehehhehe and also when she sang the song... she danced with a stiletto high heels shoes *geezz* the stage, the dancers, the band & the backsingers all impressive...

I'm not a big fans of Madonna... but I'm totally agree when people call her "a diva" ... she's a diva... a living legend... When you guys have a chance to watch her concert... you're one of the luckiest person in this world :=)

posted by Cha-- @ 11:54 AM

Wednesday, July 07, 2004

BANKRUPT

Have you ever in "no-money-at-all" situation???? If yes... You know how it feels don't you??? *sigh* Yeahh.. this is my very bottom line financial situation... Where did all my money goes??? to my bags? my shoes? my clothes? my so-not-important thingy?

Any of you wanna give me some US$ ???? read carefully... G I V E !!! not LEND :=) and in return I will pray to GOD to bless you more everyday....

Well... just hoping this is not gettin' worst *cross my finger*

posted by Cha-- @ 10:44 PM

Sunday, July 04, 2004

HAPPY 4TH OF JULY

Hari ini "Independence Day" nya USA... but I stayed at home all day long... after went to church & some friends hang-out at my place until 6PM, and when they left... I was like "I WANNA SLEEP !!!" heheheheheh

when everybody busy watching fireworks today, I watched it yesterday... with some friends... we decided to meet in Grant Park (where the fireworks took place) ... I drove my car... and it took me almost 1.5 hours to find a parking spot... goddamit!!! and the parking spot aint close to Grant Park... I've to walk for almost 20 blocks !!!

and you know what? the Grant Park was so full of people... 'coz there was a "Taste of Chicago" too ... so while we're waiting for the fireworks, we can go around the food festival ... which is actually we can't enjoy it since it was full of people... (you can't even walk without pushing each other) *sigh*

the fireworks was beautiful... and since I never see fireworks back home in Jakarta... I'm kindda enjoying the fireworks here... 'coz since all the people here so excited with the fireworks... I'm kindda get along with them... hihihihihihi

last 4th of July I spent it watched the fireworks in NYC and watching here in Chicago aint different at all ... eventhough I missed my last year summer .... huhuhuhuhuhu

btw, besok (July 5th) pemilu nya Indonesia... gue udah nyoblos duluan disini, karna gue ikutan pemilu yg "by post", so I received my election envelope last thursday & sent it back to consulate last friday... dan gue nyoblos MEGAWATI & HASJIM (since my mom told me to do so) sbg pembela kaum minoritas ... hihihihi

posted by Cha-- @ 10:20 PM

Friday, July 02, 2004

SPIDEY & BYE-BYE MY COMPAQ

Spider-Man 2 is totally cool ... I aint read the comic but this movie really shows a good story (and FUNNY !! )... both Harry Osborn (Peter Parker's best friend) & Mary Jane Watson (Parker's crush) finally found out that Peter = Spiderman (Sorry to say this guys ... but I just HAVE TO !!)

Peter Parker's having a rough time. His double life as the superhero Spider-Man is having a devastating impact on his civilian life. Things are so bad he declares that he's quitting, and never putting on the suit again. However, his sense of duty forces him to become a hero again when the brilliant scientist Dr. Otto Octavius is deformed in an accident and becomes Dr. Octopus. With four metal tentacles sticking out of his back, he'll prove to be a more than worthy opponent for Spider-Man.

Peter Parker can't seem to catch any kind of break. Being Spiderman has brought him nothing but problems as far as his personal life is concerned. Not only that, Mary Jane Watson is engaged to astronaut John Jameson, and Peter may lose her forever. Things are so bad for him that he is pushed past his breaking point, so he decides that he doesn't want to be Spiderman anymore, until a freak accident transforms Dr. Otto Octavius into Dr. Octopus, a super-villian with four metal tentacles coming out of him. Peter realizes that only Spiderman can stop him, but of course, problems arise. Mary Jane gets caught in the middle, and Harry Osborn, who still blames Spiderman for the death of his father, Norman Osborn, also the Green Goblin, wants him dead. Spiderman will have to push himself past his limits if he's going to survive.

Endingnya???? Mary Kate ga jadi nikah ama si John Jameson (and of course ... she's now together with Spidey), Dr. Octopus suicide and ... Harry Osborn will be the future Green Goblin

hmmm

Hari ini hari terakhir gue bersama my Compaq Presario 1700T, yg udah menemani gue suka & duka selama 1.5 taun terakhir ini... yg udah nemenin gue jalan2 (buat upload poto2 dong!!), yg udah nemenin bikin assignments, yg udah nemenin chatting, yg udah nemenin browsing2 nge-update all informations.... huhuhuhuhu sedih jg *hikz*

And yeah... since I sold this laptop alrdy & I aint buy a new one yet ... so .. probably I can't get online often ... don't miss me guys... you know how to reach me anyway :=)

posted by Cha-- @ 12:43 AM