c.o.L.D.F.i.s.H : October 2004
Monday, October 25, 2004
OK !!

1. I'm broke!! Totally broke.... *sigh

2. My car fucked up!

3. My school messed up

4. My life totally damned
posted by Cha-- @ 11:14 PM 
Thursday, October 21, 2004
I asked God to take away my pride, and God said, No.
He said it was not for Him to take away, but for me to give up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole, and God said, No.
He said her spirit is whole, her body is only temporary.


I asked God to grant me patience, and God said, No.
He said that patience is a by-product of tribulation;
it isn't granted, it's earned.


I asked God to give me happiness, and God said, No.
He said He gives blessings; happiness is up to me.


I asked God to spare me pain, and God said, No.
He said, "Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to me."


I asked God to make my spirit grow, and God said, No.
He said I must grow on my own,
but He will prune me to make me more fruitful.


I asked God if He loved me, and God said, YES!!!
He gave His only Son who died for me,
and I will be in heaven someday because I believe.


I asked God to help me love others as much as He loves me,
and God said, "Ah, finally, you have the idea."

posted by Cha-- @ 11:01 PM 
Sunday, October 17, 2004
Another KZoo Trip

Well, I don't even know why... but me & some friends (Kismet, Jenny & Tuti) went again to Kalamazoo this weekend... visited Kevien & Uwie (while Risky broke our heart by leaving to Colombus-Ohio) and Thomas also joined us from Saginaw. We arrived friday nite, and we hang-out in a comfy-house-look-alike coffee shop 'til 3AM.

Saturday, went around
Western Michigan University, the weather was awful, raining all day... *sigh*

we went to play bowling... which is a never-played-before game ever for me... I meant... I never want to play because I just don't WANT to play (whatever!)... but yesterday all my friends pushed me to play that shit... damned you guys! and you know what happened??? (since it was my very 1st time played bowling) I fell down once & I threw away my bowling-ball to the back (not to the front-line!!) stupiiidddd !!! hihihihihi don't you ever guys discuss about this... please!

but the very unforgetable moment was when all of us prepare our dinner time... it was such a touchy moment... so sweet !! We stayed 'till 9PM and straight back to Chicago that night... felt so sleepy & tired... arrived

another update ... huhmm.. my mom had her 2nd cemo this weekend... be strong mom! *hugz*
posted by Cha-- @ 10:41 PM 
Tuesday, October 12, 2004

Just like Carrie (sex and the City) said on her last episode "I'm looking for love. Real love. Ridiculous. Inconvenient. Consuming. Can't-live-without-each-other love. "

Life moves fast. If you don't stop to look around once in a while, you might miss it." -Ferris Bueller

posted by Cha-- @ 1:21 AM 
Saturday, October 09, 2004
Today before you think of saying an unkind word
Think of someone who can't speak

Before you complain about the taste of your food
Think of someone who has nothing to eat

Before you complain about your husband or wife
Think of someone who's crying out to God for a companion

Today before you complain about life
Think of someone who went too early to heaven

Before you complain about your children
Think of someone who desires children but they're barren

Before you argue about your dirty house someone didn't clean or sweep
Think of the people who are living in the streets

Before whining about the distance you drive
Think of someone who walks the same distance with their feet

And when you are tired and complain about your job
Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another
Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one
maker

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down
Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around

Life is a gift
Live it...
Enjoy it...
Celebrate it...
And fulfill it.

And while you are at it give love to someone today
Love someone with what you do and the words you say
Love is not meant to be kept locked inside of us and hidden So give it away "Give Love to someone today!"
posted by Cha-- @ 10:37 AM 
Friday, October 08, 2004

Even best friends aren't forever. Friendship is built on similarities, and you can't call anyone a best friend unless she or he calls you her/his best friend too. It's a sad but natural process: when one friend's life situation changes, so does the friendship. Change is progress, not betrayal. Keep the parting gentle and the memory sweet, and who knows sometime in the future, your best friend could turn up again out of the blue as that other precious relationship in life: OLD FRIENDS.

posted by Cha-- @ 1:28 AM 
Tuesday, October 05, 2004
h i k z

i'm such not in the mood lately ... my emotion goes up & down easily and i don't even know whaddahell is goin' on here... wanna cry out loud...

posted by Cha-- @ 11:22 PM 
Monday, October 04, 2004
This is a story about four people, named
Everybody, Somebody,
Anybody, and Nobody.

There was an important job to be done, and
Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it.

Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did.
Somebody got angry about this, because it was
Everybody's job.

Everybody thought Anybody could do it, but
Nobody realised that Everybody wouldn't do it.

It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody
when Nobody did what Anybody could have done
!
posted by Cha-- @ 10:21 PM 
Friday, October 01, 2004
my lovely mommy ...

I just got some of my mom's pictures from my sister ... and this really help me a bit to heal how much I miss her so much lately... glad to see that she still can smile... a smile that I really remember ... a smile that shows that she's such a very brave woman...

I called my family this morning (night time at Jakarta), and talked to all of'em (but my brother)... had a nice chit-chat like the old time... laughed out loud, it just seems that we're not far away ... really made me wanna go back home again this X-Mas... *sigh* I just can't imagine how could I go thru X-Mas-time without sharing the moment with my dad, my mom, my sister & my brother... 'coz it's been a tradition for me to go back home every X-Mas ... (whaddahell are we talking about... X-Mas is still 2 months ahead... damned!)

anywaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy.... that's about it... enough is enough... no more discussion about "PULANG KAMPUNG FOR X-MAS"
posted by Cha-- @ 4:14 PM